it's been riots of emotions, rollercoasters, ups and downs. i'll admit that it's partially to do with the dramas i've been watching, but mainly it's just me. i know i shouldn't keep liking shaun but somehow i just cant help it. i try not to read too much into is actions, i try to give him up, i try. but each time he is nice i hope. it's like my heart and mind are two seperate entities. i know i will be hurt if i keep putting myself out like that. but what can i do?

i've been guilty too of other things. like treating my dad evil. but why must he make things so hard? =(

i need to stop the retail therapy business. it's not working.


春天慢慢一點點發芽
快樂開始都有了想像
城市光合作用的模樣
幸福開始組裝

夜裡滿園的茉莉花香
月光灑落看不見憂傷
旋轉木馬前那個廣場
愛情開始滋長

想你有時會缺氧
嘴角不自覺上揚
這是不是幸福的現象
胸口微微的發燙

想你有時會缺氧
臉紅呼吸不正常
這是不是幸福的症狀
不知不覺又缺氧

夜裡滿園的茉莉花香
月光灑落看不見憂傷
旋轉木馬前那個廣場
愛情開始滋長

想你有時會缺氧
臉紅呼吸不正常
這是不是幸福的症狀
不知不覺又缺氧

無法移動的夢想
就算沒有人鼓掌
我也不會受傷
不會稀釋的信仰
心穿越磚牆
在你的身旁

想你有時會缺氧
嘴角不自覺上揚
這是不是幸福的現象
胸口微微的發燙

想你有時會缺氧
臉紅呼吸不正常
這是不是幸福的症狀
胸口微微的發燙
不知不覺又缺氧 8:21:00 PM