HAHAHA.

i was browsing personality tests and randomly doing them, or reading them. and then guess what?

this came out:
6. You are the charmer but you can also
be warm and nurturing. But beware of
the green-eyed monster in you. Your
needs or affection can make you
clingy. And one more thing, stop going
after unavailable guys!
Your love match: Someone who canmake you feel secure.

HAHAHAHAHA. i would dismiss it if the bolded line wasn't so true. 8:21:00 AM

Girlfriend

Hey Hey You You
I don't like your girlfriend
No way No way
I think you need a new one
Hey Hey You You
I could be your girlfriend

Hey Hey You You
I know that you like me
No way No way
No, it's not a secret
Hey Hey You You
I want to be your girlfriend

You're so fine I want you mine You're so delicious I think about you all the time You're so addictive Don't you know What I can do To make you feel alright Don't pretend I think you know I'm damn precious And hell yeah I'm the mother fucking princess I can tell you like me too And you know I'm right

She's like so whatever
You can do so much better
I think we should get together now
And that's what everyone's talking about

I can see the way I see the way You look at me And even when you look away I know you think of me I know you talk about me all the time again and again So come over here and tell me what I wanna hear Better, yet, make your girlfriend disappear I don't wanna hear you say her name ever again

In a second you'll be wrapped around my finger 'Cause I can, 'cause I can do it better There's no other, so when's it gonna sink in She's so stupid, what the hell were you thinking? In a second you'll be wrapped around my finger 'Cause I can, 'cause I can do it better There's no other, so when's it gonna sink in She's so stupid, what the hell were you thinking? 10:46:00 PM

my day was so bad it was hilarious. and all i'm hoping is that the bad luck i experienced is all due to the fact that bad luck has been deflected from the paper itself. *crosses finger*

let me recount:

Forensic paper in the morning after which, i was discussing the paper with germaine and serene, worriedly oblivious to all surrounding happenings, when what should happen but... a guy fell from the sky! just short of falling into my lap. the one who dropped him must have missed his target, for he fell on my shoulder. and it hurt. hmmm. aim properly next time? haha. well anyway the poor guy, whose face i didn't even see was so embarrassed he mumbled a low 'sorry' and promptly disappeared. well well. how often does someone fall on you? tsk.

Then, while i was waiting for the bus 91 to go look for my ex boss, i had to wait for 20 minutes! BUT no... that's not the unlucky part... just as 91 came, so did bus 95, which JUST HAD to come in front of 91 AND block 91's bus driver's view of me, such that... he totally bypassed the stop. i almost fainted. but... i didn't. i swallowed my embarrassment (for flagging a bus that did not stop in front of a million ACJC students) and went back to wait. for another 20 minutes. and guess what? another 91 came, this time with 198 and 74 in front. conveniently, 91 bypassed the stop again, the driver's view having been blocked by the buses in front AGAIN! i was beginning to think i might be invisible. or that i was making the same mistake i did once, by waiting at a bus stop where that bus did not stop. so i went to check. i DIDN'T make any mistake!

i ended up taking a cab in. $3 down the drain. how lame.

now if that isn't the funniest day one can experience, tell me what is. shyan laughed until i think she almost collapsed on the floor. haha. and when i left, and she showed me where the bus stop was, she said: i think the bus should stop for you this time. = . = and it should! i was the only one at the most isolated bus stop, if it didn't stop, i can definitely conclude that i'm invisible.

haha. it stopped la.
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interview tomorrow? call the school? call the agencies? decide whether to go back?

oh dear. what should i do. how dilemma-ish.

AND I REALLY WANT THAT SHADOWING THING. please please please let it come through.
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the only good thing about today was the hair. yup. for once it was good hair day. whee~

so let something good come out of this bad day?

pretty pretty please with sugar and chocolate chip sprinkled, hazelnut ice cream topped with whipped cream and strawberry syrup?
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it's hard to believe that one year has gone by since i stopped working at starhub. well almost. 3 months short of a year. and here i was thinking that it was just recently that i stopped working there and now nine whole months have passed. time passes quickly. and the three months are going to positively fly. and then we go back to our routines. but dont get me wrong. NUS life is actually pretty fun.

i like.

BUT the stress?
i hate.

hahaha. but oh well, you can't have your cake and eat it too. so. i'm content.

last paper on wednesday. yay yay yay.

i feel happy. wheeeeeeeeeee~ 9:10:00 PM

grownups never understand anything by themselves, & it is tiresome for children to be always & forever explaining things to them.

with responsibilities, they lose sight of the important things. the simplest things that form the basis of the most important principals of life. with more material wants, they lose the ability to enjoy those very materials to the fullest. with more cynicism, with more insight, with more exposure, they bring their guards up and are unable of letting them down again. there's always something holding them back from doing something. there's always doubt. once someone has been lied to one too many times, suffered one too many disappointments, he loses his ability to trust. and these things once lost can never be found back.

then again. where would children be without these adults protecting them from the full blow of the harsh world for the longest time possible?

it's so hard to retain innocence. that pure elusive thing. that causes a child to trust implicitly, to love unconditionally, to live an uncomplicated existence, encumberance-free, to laugh genuinely, to enjoy freedom. for the regretfully limited number of days of those they have.

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i don't even want to talk about those disgusting things i've sat for. it's unbelievable. and there's two more. save me.

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i'm upset about some stuff apart from that too. i feel... a little envy, a little regret, a little questioning, a little wistful, a little sad, a little hopeless, a little, the littlest of the little - pang. 12:02:00 AM

oh oh oh. i just realized that that means i can't tell the difference between plain and non-plain.
THANKS. oh man. congratulations... *gives the face* 12:12:00 AM

the crush expired. haha. that was quick.

and the stars are numerous and pretty tonight. go see. 11:33:00 PM

And here's the truth about truth.
It hurts.
And so we lie. 8:30:00 PM

what does eye contact mean? how do you know if eye contact is eye contact or if it is a plain cursory glance? well. i've noticed a particular someone for 3 days. and we happened (or deliberately chose?) to sit relatively near on all three days. i have to confess that that is a major part of the reason why i leave so late. i don't really love the place, contrary to popular belief. in any case, my mind has been going into overdrive since this afternoon.

I dont think i imagined anything. in any case... sheesh. i don't know anything. no name, no fac, no nothing, just a face coupled with the knowledge that one of his friends has a team NUS jacket and hence is probably part of team NUS. and i cant find the person with a name i do not know. tsk tsk. amelia amelia. 12:39:00 AM

1:59:00 PM

But isn't there anything i can do to prevent what has happened?
No. We can't prevent what we cannot predict.
But there must be something i can do.
Yes. You can enjoy this beautiful day. There are so few of them.

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Please take care. God bless and all the best.

Well. it does make one think doesn't it. if i somehow didn't manage to make it through tomorrow, how many regrets will i have had? maybe. maybe it's time to cut back on regrets. enough.

Happy birthday to April babies. joey, shaun, nixon, norman, samantha and i think there are more. happy birthday! =)

I'm sorry. i know i'm short tempered. and stress is really bringing out the worst in me. sorry. sorry. 11:07:00 PM

La foudre a frappé.
Il y a d'orage.
Il est très bruyant.
J'ai du peur des éclairs.

Let's all play in the crayon world.
We'll all hold hands, and
Dance among the stark lines.
Make merry with the vivid colours.

With candy cane trees,
And lemon drop snow.
Falling gently from a candy floss sky,
Into the long chocolate river.

With blurry sides,
A magical edge, a dreamy look.
We'll walk the earth with lighthearted steps,
And sing in perfect harmony.

'Tis we'll do:
Dip warm cookies in cold milk,
Nap a little, rest the weary feet,
Dreaming of dances in daffodil fields.

We'll love a little,
Live a little,
Laugh a lot,
And lie not.

Fairies, Elves, Pixies, Angels,
And whatever else not.
We'll play games of freeze and tag.
And, hear our screams of genuine joy.


Dis c.o.n.n.e.c.t. 2:44:00 PM

i feel useless, aimless, everything-less.

there is a world of a difference between testing the limits and 'trying'-limits.

and right now it's definitely the latter. 11:19:00 AM

it has just dawned on me that i can only ever see myself as a teacher in the end. not that i want to. but it seems to be the only choice i have. once again, i'll land myself a place in the said 'dumping grounds' of the class of society that i happen to be in at the time.

i cannot see myself married or with kids 10 years or even 15 years from now.

is the uncertainty warranted? yes.

and what am i to do with this person who wants to grow up and yet doesn't want to?

what am i to do with me?

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meilleur meilleur meilleur. drum it in. i lost a mark.


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If all i ever wanted was
Love and laughter.
If all i ever wanted was
Kinship and a kindred spirit.

Elusive myth seeked, that
Sculptors fail to create, that
Lyricists fail to capture,
Such is its magic, fleeting,

Spellbinding. 8:15:00 PM

i think... that i constantly have crushes just for the sake of having crushes. of course there are those that last longer than others, but even so, in between, other crushes come along, only reason being that i will have some kind of motivation. if life was all only about school and stuff, then it will be quite boring. blah. then again, liking someone is different from having a crush. you can have a crush on someone even while liking someone. aha.

life is interesting.

oh and french was... ok. i sincerely HOPE.

please please please. 3:11:00 PM

si je le montre mon coeur.
les sentiments qui j'ai quelquefois,
et si tu connais ce que je veux:
'humer le parfum d'amour, et
appelle le nom de toi.'
rêves éveillé de toi sont faux, mais
utilise ces jours quand je te vois,
ne casse pas mon coeur, s'il vous plait. 9:46:00 AM

for about an hour there, everything fell apart and i just let it all out.

everything is crumbling. it's like when you build a jenga tower and the tower was already unstable and then you pull one more block out and everything falls.

crash. 1:42:00 AM

ALRIGHT.

enough is enough.

everything seems to be going wrong. friends, school, family, home, relatives, work, mind.

i am so upset it's getting me pissed off. i am officially really angry now. with everything. and i'm officially broke. damn it. damn damn damn. dang. 12:28:00 AM

being accused of something you did not do is unbearable. it is sickening. give me a break. please. 12:08:00 AM

if you knew how many tears have been shed because you simply couldn't be bothered, would you still do the things you do?

do we matter?

虽然不常说出来，可是这些事情打从一开始就一直在累积。你就不可以多关心一点吗？就不可以为他人着想吗？你有尝试过看着别人哭，自己的心也跟着碎了的感觉吗？就因为你。

你在乎吗？

泪。

累。

pardon the emo-ness. sorry. 11:48:00 PM

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hahahhaa. 9:11:00 PM