have been reading blogs.. sometimes i feel.. totally ignored. and totally invisible. totally insignificant. oh wells.

i keep waiting for something to happen. i keep thinking that it will all slip away. and soon. so i wait for it to slip away. and because i'm waiting for it to all disappear, i'm not trying very hard to keep it near. and it may turn out so, that precisely because i don't show more care, it disappears. it's a horrid circular argument.

i feel... odd. i feel... nothing.

If i start trying to move on one day,
will you realise things are no longer the same?
If I start insisting i'm fine whenever you ask,
will you realise that deep down i'm totally not?
If i start speaking differently one day,
will you realise i've changed?
If i start avoiding you one day,
will you realise my intentions?
If i start to remain silent one day,
will you realise i'm seeing no point?

If i stop saying "it's okay" one day,
will you realise i'm beginning to mind?
If i stop talking to you one day,
will you realise i have no more to say?
If i stop listening to you one day,
will you realise i've had enough?
If i stop trying one day,
will you realise i've given up hope?
If i stop being the girl you thought you knew,
will you realise i am gone? 12:21:00 AM