the fireworks were really nice, like glitter showering from the sky, we watched with childlike fascination, exclaiming at every sparkle, every explosion. it made all the prior squeezing and pushing and hassle all worth it in the end. even if i didnt know it before.

makes you wonder if you know the value of worthiness? what is worth it and what is not? and yet, how do you know something is worth it unless you have tried it all through? you couldnt very well say something is not worth it if you havent spent something to experience it no? how would i have known that the feeling would be worth it? even if it had been described to me would i have believed it? chances are, no i would not have. for a few minutes of pleasure, was spending so much worth it? but. it was a few minutes of pleasure multiplied many many times because there were many many people. now is it worth it? out of that, many many of the people were children, and their joy is infectious, making parents laugh and onlookers smile indulgently, with a sense of shared enjoyment and delight, at least for that moment. now is it worth it? maybe so. =) now let's not be cynics. it was worth it. it really was. the fireworks left me feeling really awed, and i was glad i caught it on the last day =) and i loved the company. =) jiam (c dong ->read it fast! =P), ck (stop calling me blur!), lijun (with her hamster *raise eyebrows* =P), huiling (who is damn cute and i'm so glad i know her now), glendon (with his irritating poke the face trick hahaha) =D happiness.

oh and we met xiaochen and binglin somewhere along the way too, it's either now we know more people than ever, we are bound to meet some even in the most crowded places, or we must be really fated to meet them EVEN in such crowded places. haha. perspectives again. and i guess it will depend on who it is we meet, that will make us decide how it is we want to take it =)

oh wells. in any case, it was still beautiful. till next year then, tata. =) next year let's make a date to watch the manmade shooting stars again.

i tried to take some photos and the old man beside us took a video of the entire thing. but i guess no matter what, photos and videos make the fireworks impersonal. they make them look so far away, so unreachable, when in actual fact, the fireworks totally looked like they could be touched and caught in the palm of my hand. some things you can never capture. just like how you could read a million stories of being in love, but you could never know how it felt unless you've experienced it yourself. just like how you can be told about how amazing snow really is, but could never imagine just how nice the cold can feel, or just how beautiful the vastness of a white plain is. how awesome. just like how you could never capture a sunset or sunrise beautifully enough on film, so you cannot catch a shooting star or a firework display properly enough to do the actual thing justice. some things you keep in your mind's eye, in a kaleidoscope of beautiful memories for flipping through when the going gets tough, for referring to when you feel a little down, for calming purposes when you're frustrated. just as how we keep friendships, past or present, ongoing or over, we keep them in our hearts, preserved for always, where they reside, even if one day the photos are lost, even if they burn in a fire or get lost in the sea, memories remain. and sometimes we forget, but at the least likely times, the images from a long ago time rise up and offer momentary comfort and joy. and sometimes, that is enough.

had the oddest dream: i was pregnant. like now, at this instant, this point in time. *raises eyebrows real high* haha and i was like totally panicked until i remembered... WAIT A MINUTE. just how can i be pregnant when i've not done the act?! = . = i must be REALLY paranoid. haha. craziness. it was a REALLY silly dream. hahaha.

went shopping with cheryl teo today and bought a million nice things, for a whole lot of money! hahaha. oh wells. no more shopping for me k. not even like shopping in nus! eeks. and now it's study time. =) i'm all set. bring it on.

there is like, and THEN there is like. 8:17:00 PM