and even the worst people have good sides. so stop comdemning. especially when the person/people condemned are not even the worst. why not try and find some uses for all that sarcasm. why not try and channel the hostility elsewhere? why not try and find a silver lining? why not try some encouragement because everyone feels bad about it? why rub salt into the wound? why act self righteous? forgive people for how do you know what goes on behind the scenes? you never try to understand or find out anyway. you've alrdy exiled the person/people into a place too far for you to reach.

so many emotions, so many layers to peel back, so much animosity, so many misunderstandings, so much left unsaid.

i'm well and truly lost.

i wanted to conclude with '爱屋及乌', but i guess maybe i think too highly of somethings, some people, i guess maybe i think too highly of myself, maybe i rank some things too high, maybe all is not what i thought. maybe at the end of the day, i'm really the only silly one holding all these unsubstantial things in high respect while it's all thrash to all else involved.

so i guess not. 11:06:00 PM