today is a happy and fine day, i repeat, H-A-P-P-Y. and i'm being honest.. hahaha. but well, at the end of the day i watched a movie which made me melancholy, and read a book which had the same effect so the below quotes and whatnot may seem a tad sad, but it has been a great day overall. i'm proud of me. =) wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

'at first i thought i married her because she was the only one i could live with. gradually, i came to realize that i married her because she was the only one i couldn't live without.'
now isn't that sweet. but the girl died. how ironic. =( aha. then again, it's a film. don't films come out with all sorts of romantic thrash that in fact stay that way? as thrash?

and here's a song i found out about today. it's just a tad sad.

Now if there's a smile on my face It's only there trying to fool the public But when it comes down to fooling you Now honey that's quite a different subject But don't let my glad expression Give you the wrong impression Cos really I'm sad, Oh I'm sadder than sad Well I'm hurt and I want you so bad Like a clown I appear to be glad

Well they're some sad things known to man But ain't too much sadder than The tears of a clown when there's noone around

Now if I appear to be carefree It's only to camouflage my sadness And honey to shield my pride I try To cover this hurt with a show of gladness But don't let my show convince you That I've been happy since you Cos I need to go, oh I need you so Look I'm hurt and I want you to know For others I put on a show ...

Just like Pagliacci did I try to keep my surface hid Smiling in the crowd I try But in a lonely room I cry The tears of a clown When there's noone around, Now if there's a smile on my face Don't let my glad expression Give you the wrong impression Don't let this smile I wear Make you think that I don't care Cos really I'm sad... 11:18:00 PM