what kind of person would have such a warped idea?! revenge? i'm not insane. or that cruel. even if people may think so. I'm stunned.

what's wrong with the world? has everyone gone mad? or is it that i'm the one who's insane and that's why everybody seems to be insane to me.

I've said what i said. what must i do now?

I don't care? good joke. if i don't care... well. there are so many things i can choose to do or not do if i don't care. if you choose to think i don't care there is nothing i can do. fine then. think what you will. as long as i know. it doesn't matter what you think.

it's all about choices isn't it.

what's privacy in a world like this? it's nothing. but i did not expect this. no i definitely did not.

what you don't know can't hurt you. so why does everybody choose to pry only to find out things they don't need to know. human nature is warped. this world is the result of a really really warped mistake. haha. isn't that funny.

please. however close two people are, there are still some things that have to be kept private. it's called privacy. some things i don't say don't misunderstand. it's not about you. my life is MULTI faceted. there are about a million aspects to my life, a million faces to me. a million things i worry and stress about just because i'm a worrier. it's in my character. so it's about so many things. i just happen to be a dreamer. dreamers don't talk. much. so what's the big deal.

chill out.

sit back, relax, take some coffee, let the shit sort itself out. it will eventually. everything always gets sorted out.

you have no idea what's going on so stop your accusations. stop accussing me of everything ok?! you want to be disgusted with me? you want to be pissed with me? you want to hate me? go ahead ok. you have no idea. so just think what you like. cuz frankly i'm too tired to bother about even arguing with you. see there's a reason why i keep quiet all the time. part of the reason is you. cuz i always lose arguments you see. so i give up arguing. in time i give up speaking too. cuz talking gets me into trouble. so basically i give up opening my mouth. i give up explaining myself. i don't see the point la seriously. people are always going to misunderstand my intentions and if i'm going to spend my time explaining everything. it's not worth it. if you don't know me, don't know the way i feel, then too bad. cuz i'm not going to bother telling you. you meaning everybody. so don't get paranoid. as i said, this is the way i am.

and how the hell do you know what's rubbish and what's not. is university rubbish? is destressing rubbish? then ok. i give up. i'll just shut myself in a corner and not do anything. will that suit you better? you think you know so much. always have. and i've always let you win. cuz as i said i don't even want to bother explaining to you something you can't even begin to understand. people say when others attack you, just let them. they'll go away after awhile. that has always been my approach. if you take it as a sign of defeat then so be it. if you take it that i admit you are right then so be it. if you think that i don't care, that's fine too.

everybody thinks i don't care anyway. so what's new. 8:34:00 PM