Packed to the brim. i'm doing everything i can. Can't stand to do nothing. I exhaust myself everyday just so i can sleep. I do everything just so I can snap myself out of the numbness. I do anything just so I can feel the pain. Do you know how tiring that is.

went to the bloodbank yesterday to TRY to do a donation. haha. what a disaster that was. first, i forgot to bring my IC. of all the retarded things to do. and the day before I forgot my tennis racket when i went out to play tennis. My brain is a sieve nowadays. nothing stays in, nothing comes out. it's like i'm a walking zombie. haha. what's wrong with me. and then after I had gone home to take my IC and went back again, now they say my iron level is not enough.. haha. Oh man. talk about 力不从心。haha.

went to cycle with wendy and ruixin after that. the beach is niceee. I love the sea. and the cycling was really fun too since there was like no sun and lotsa wind. Overall it's damn nice. =) love the beach. went for supper/dinner with Shyan and jasmine and connie and justina after that. haha. just a bit off. and dinner was expensive. then went for Durian gathering which i didn't eat. yet again. haha. I seem to always find myself in a midst of durian lovers. hmm. i wonder why that is. haha. oh. and did i mention that strawberry sundaes are super nice? and did i also mention that we walked from Bedok to Kallang? WALKED? how far is that? just count. haha. i won't help you. damn cool la. we would have walked all the way to bugis if we hadn't thought we were gonna be late. which we weren't in the end. still waited so long. On my way home, at the bus stop, i saw this freaky old man who like just came to talk to me and he used some lame excuse to talk to me. damn retarded. even said he wanted to send me home. I was like so freaked out laaa. and nobody came to my rescue. haha. nobody was free to talk to me on the phone!! darn. freaked out man. haha. lucky i was smart and didn't even say or do anything. the only thing was that he knew what bus number i take. and i said i was going home. i was like so freaking scared he would stalk me home or sth. SCARY. reached home at like 12.30 am. haha. it was dark and i thought about the ghosts again. darn. hahhaa.

and I still wanna play Tennissss. And will be going to the beach today with rachel dearest! yessss. i'm gonna miss her when she goes back to US. =(

i think i'm either a lousy person or i'm a lousy-people magnet. meaning i attract lousy people. i think it's the former. =( 8:58:00 AM