Save me from myself. i CANNOT take this.

'People sometimes talk about how strong and tough children are and how much they can take, but I think a lot of kids fake being OK just trying to keep from going crazy.'

Sometimes even when it doesn't matter, it still hurts. Sometimes it shouldn't hurt, but still it does. Sometimes I wish things could change. But it doesn't. Sometimes you think what if. But in thinking what if, more what if's come about and at the end you get all confused and mixed up. You think something happened which didn't actually happen. You disillusion yourself and the mirror reflects a thousand yous. You don't know which to pick. It's like in the house of mirrors. Everywhere you turn, there seems to be a way out. Then you reach your hand out and it comes in contact with glass. Trapped. Like a fly in a damp airless space. endlessly flapping but unable to break out. 12:58:00 PM